School, fool.
Well school started with a bang, I had a lot of homework already, and guess what, I'm lovin' it! Really, I am. No joke, I mean it could be hard to start, just like anything, but doing it I really don't mind. I have two bets with people that my GPA will be higher than theirs this quarter. One of them for twenty bucks, one of them for five. That's motivation haha. As crazy as this school year is going to be, like with Spanish and Cisco, I think its going to be awesome. We will see, but other than being awesome, I am gonna have to give a lot of myself to be awesome too. I never realized how many things I have to be grateful for until last night. Like school, so many people hate it, but what they don't realize is, without school, you would be such an idiot. You wouldn't know how to talk that good, you wouldn't know how to read, you wouldn't know any math, you would be really stupid. By the time your like 20 you would have the same brain capacity as a kindergartener, with less information stored in your brain. I'm ready to go back tomorrow, ready to learn. I really want to learn some Spanish, I'm excited about that. I really hope my science teacher is a good one, she's old and slow, and doesn't touch technology, it's all chalk board, but hopefully I learn some things and can get an A. That goes for all classes, hopefully I get an A. Picture day is coming up, and later on is like homecoming and prom. Who knows if I'll go, I'm guessing no, but maybe something will come up and I will. If I do go it wont be Bedford's homecoming or prom, it would be stows, because I would never go to bedford's.
Camping and cramping.
Camping, was amazing. Had some good hang out time with the word people, did some fun stuff, and slept. I'd have to say probably 80 percent of the trip we all just chilled out, and chatted. I wanted to play basketball, never happened, I wanted to play baseball, never happened. Oh well. I burnt my hat! Threw it in the fire. I realized it was just another material object that I was clinging to, that I could do away with easily. The chance came, and I took it. As for friendships, I think they all increased on many levels I would say. Like with elli, and anele. I felt almost like I grew up a little this camping trip, which may sound weird, but I don't mean physically, I mean mentally. Keith's teaching had me thinking about being grateful. Like theres so much I don't realize. So many relationships and so much guidance and what not that I just don't think about, or thank for receiving, or even thank God for. He provides me with so much through all my brothers and sisters in Christ, that I don't even think about. I have a laptop, a bed, an alarm clock, paper, pencils, shoes, underwear, a haircut. So many things seem like I deserve them, but I don't. Like im sure you feel you deserve to have your underwear at least, but theres people out there that cant enjoy such a luxury. And its always compaired to people in third world countries, but theirs people in America that are starving, freeballing, unshowered, and lack the ability to read. Why? Because this world is messed up big time and is in control of the evil one. Now I see the world differently. I feel different. Burning my hat at camping was a symbol, a symbol of me breaking out of my shell. From now on I am going to be grateful for many things, accepting what is given to me and loving thoughs who give. While also loving thoughs who don't, those who cant, those who are poor, feeling sorrow for them, praying for them, and showing them the love of God.
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Back to camping, ha ha. So the beach was fun, but gross. Lake Erie is awesomely gross. I slept in Mikes tent for two nights and last night I slept on a picnic table by the fire. Then woke up really early and went back to sleep in a chair, very uncomfortable like. Woke up and ached in every way possible, made a mistake, just like I do every year lol. Sleeping by the fire was way more awesome when Krause would do it with me. Man, that hit me when I thought about how me and Krause used to have so much fun at camping. Like we used to play this one game, where we would just stand there, long story short I miss the dude. I saw him today on the way home, we passed his house and he was walking towards his car I think.
What else happened at camping? Lots of capture the flag, lots of fun, a pot luck, we got away from our normal everyday-ness… and got some ice cream, went to a light house, dance party, and burnt a bunch of stuff the last night, in the fire, like chips and wood of course, doughnuts, watermelon, pencils (sorry shelly), and a skunk. No not a skunk, but we saw one lol.
Car
So I bought a car. Without any guidance, without telling anyone I was going to, no insurance, and that made me sad. I think the car is sweet, but now a bunch of people are really mad at me, I probably should have asked for guidance, but I just wasn't thinking. I heard "I've got a car for you dude" and that's all I could think about. This was one of the biggest impulse buys I have ever fell into, and one of the craziest unguided decisions ive ever made. I hope it works out, im pretty sure it will, I have a couple of things I could do money wise to get things going. I'm hoping to get insurance this week, and the title in my name. Im pretty sure it will all be done this week, and I'll be driving it this weekend im sure, at least I hope haha. With my work schedule, its tough to get things done. But im determined. My cars at mikes house for now, I'm not gonna drive it until I get insurance. Then I'll get an oil change.
Man am I mad at myself for doing this. I hope I can keep my mind set in the lord, so I don't make obviousely insane decisions. I made one like this before where my mind was set on something other than the lord. Man, God, I pray you help me keep my mind in the right place.
I don't know what else to talk about.
-B
p.s. : are u staring, at my lips? Haha ; )
